Black Sheep

I should keep my thoughts to myself. Something I have realized is that I have entirely separated myself from the 'outside' world. I have this urge to be solitary. Alone time seems to be the only time that I am actually thinking consciously. I have made this label for myself in my family as the 'black sheep'. It never seems to workout with me and my family and I understand that. It was ever since I could remember as a child, I always saw everything in a completely different way as everyone else. My anger only follows as natural defense to defend my point of view, but that itself is the problem. I am going to lose focus every time I fail. I am going to direct my anger to any opposing thought or feeling. I am going to evolve this way hopefully I will evolve to find the positive aspects, but only time can tell. Where can I go to find myself?